Don't Try To Get Back The Wasted Time - ヤッタの大冒険！

Here are the old lyrics for a song that I loved for so many years, and is still getting back to my life, every year. Those lyrics can translate what the world and most aprt of the people mean to me.

Takashi Sorimachi - Poison

いつまても信じていたい
最后まで思い续けたい
自分は生きる意味があるはずと

冷めた目で笑いかけてる
魂を侵された奴
泪を流す痛みはあるのかい

言いたい事も言えないこんな世のじゃ
poison
俺は俺をだますことなく生きてゆく
oh oh

まっすぐ向きあう现实に
夸りを持つために
战う事も必要なのさ

阶段にすわりこんで
终らない梦の话を
夜が明けるまで语り续けてた

さりげなく季节は变わり
无意识に视线を落とし
流される事に惯れてゆくのか

小さな梦も见れないこんな世の中じゃ
poison
自分らしさずっといつでも好きでいたい
oh oh

自由に生きてく日を
大切にしたいから
行きたい道を今步きだす

污い嘘や言叶で操られたくない
poison
素直な气持ちから目をそらしたくない

言いたい事も言えないこんな世のじゃ
poison
俺は俺をだますことなく生きてゆく
oh oh

まっすぐ向きあう现实に
夸りを持つために
战う事も必要なのさ

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I will dedicate this song to some things and people that are "happening" in my life...

Sometimes, we get old in the surfasse, but we still can be kids inside, to live more, to practice more, to be REALLY happy!

I still can't get what is sinsde the mind of some people who needs to make other people's lives a misery. You don't need to make worse the life of anyone to be happy. Being HAPPY and making other people happy, is better. And is good for EVERYONE!

Some people screw the other people's lives dating them to discard later, other people make other people wait for something that will NEVER happen, and, some people just LIE to another, for "fun". Man, it's NOT fun to lie, to make other person's lives gone wrong, or something like that. That's RUDE!

My heart is being broken by someone that's new, and I am here, suffering with intense feelings, because she made me think she was Worth it, but, she isn't. My luck was the fact that we didn't start to be together yet (and I'll NOT  be with her), because she can only bring me pain. She made me think she was special, then, she treats me like a scumdog, then she cures my heart and very soon, she makes me cry again. That sucks!

Some people were made to be alone. Maybe she is one of those people. And I am discovering too many bad things about her. In time to save myself from a disgraced future at her side.

I almost fell for her intenselly. ALMOST! But, still hurts to know what I really am for her.

Today is 19/10, sunday... Friday night I was so bad, that I tryied to finish my life suffocating myself with a pillow. A strange message from na old friend saved me from this. But, at the same time, made me cry a lot. It was a moment that I WANTED a lot to finish my life. I WANTED and I NEEDED it. But, this friend saved me in a really strange way,

Someone saved me from other one, and this other one saved me from this new someone. How it can be? And, WHY? Maybe that's the real question. WHY they do this to me? They are the people who made me think about killing myself, and then, they are the same person to make me live more. Bizarre, to be sincere...

Well, I have too much pain inside me, loneliness getting stronger. I don't want to live anymore, but, maybe I still have something to do, maybe helping other people. Maybe nobody really cares about me, but, maybe, there are some people who will be sad without me in their lives. I just wanted to know who they are. Just wanted to be part of their lives, for sure.

ヤッタの大冒険！