I wanna be your prince!

Yes, I wanna be your prince... It doesn't matter now what will happen, I'll never give up the fight, until I'm DEAD!

I wanna be the one you will want and need until the end of times.
I will do my best to show you that I am the best for you.
I'm gonna make you smile, without saying anything,
and, above all, without making promises.

Do you know why? Just because I have Strong feelings for you. Not a "Feeling of the Week" or "for a month", but, true feelings!

I wanna be your "Akai Ito", and have straight laces with you.
I know that I'll be hurting myself in the way to open your heart to me,
I know that you'll be difficult to believe, but, I know that you care about me,
What we can do? Well, I will try to make you happy... with me ato your side!

I have only ONE to be the ONE in my life. And, it's YOU. And, maybe you'll never read this, but, maybe you will. I don't know.

Some people say to forget about it, to try someone near, someone that's closer, but, there's NO ONE close enough that could touch my heart as she did, even so far away.

I will fight until the end.
I will make ti happen.
I WILL DO IT FOR YOU AND FOR ME!

I want to discover more and more with you, and even about you,
I want you to know more about me every day, even if you already knew enough about me.

You are my positive motivation for keep walking,
And I will keep on my way, for yout, to you, with you...

You are my inspiration, my motivational muse,
maybe you could be my reason to life, someday... maybe you already are!

Captain Kirk is climbing a Mountain Because I'm in Love!

Oh yeah... Captain Kirk is climbing a Mountain because I'M IN LOVE... Not for him, and not even him for me, hahahah... Other people, of course!

I remember the time I saw Doctor who at the first time... It was so back into my childhood... At the same year, I saw Super Mario Bros, The Movie, at the big screen, when I was with my Family at the beach. At the same week, Stargate was there too.

I had na afternoon dreaming, waking up, and reamin, and waking up. She was there, graceful, softly with me, in one of those dreams. In another, I was at a restaurant with old friends (and some of the old friends, I didn't remember if I really saw them in real life), and even,I had stronger dreams, and woke up with my mother screaming a lot. Then, I went down stairs, and she didn't did that scream, it was only at the end of my dream. Very strange, but, ok.

I made new friends, and I am getting time with old friends too. But, there are days that I feel like no one is here, no one cares about, and, keep myself in my "shell" (my bed, my room, my computer).

I am blanked out, nothing new is comming from my head for the scrypt of my new movie. It's not horror, trash or even comedy. It is about romance and drama. Strange, isn't it? ME, writing a drama/romance?

Well, maybe that's because I have mixed up feelings right now. A girl is shaking my heart, other girls are being new friendships that I needed and didn't have... Some people are so far, that, maybe they didn't miss me if I die, other people are trying to be close to me.

I am starting to composse new songs, and I see images in the sound. It makes me crazy when I cannot write what I see, only play it. Not everyone can see what I see, just hear what I do, and, it's frustrating. ><

Well... I have things to do. And, maybe I'm near to discover something I never had imagined. OMG.

Here I go, back to work... After some strange dreams...

See ya

YATTA!

bye-Q!

A little bit me, alittle bit you

A few days of work and a little bit DEATH inside. Or maybe just another time to REBORN again. Or to die and live and die and live... I can't say the right words by now, but, I can FEEL IT.

It was AWESOME to make a Project with Rubão, using lights at the Sin city/Sucker Punch style. We are still going to make MORE pics, with more people, and, it's gonna be AWESOME!

 

Akemi and Emily were good to be the "pretty but fatal" girls. They still have a lot to learn about posing with "feeling", but, they're on the way! 

Sometimes, good poses are better with some direction of the photographer. Even good pictures have their good and bad parts. Sometimes, we need to improvise, to get what we want/need.

Maybe, just MAYBE, we will need to practice more with vídeo, this style, so we can handle a lot more. We have the guns, we have the rights to use them in vídeo, we have the crew and acting people. All we need is TIME and more MONEY to finish more projects!

 

Today, every little thing, every word, every Picture, all of it, was thought a lot, and then, made it.

 

We have what we need, we do what we want, and it's better than it was before!

 

I've got good friends helping me, and I left bad friends behind, and, things are getting so much better now. Just like the Darwin style, the Strong ones will continue, the weak cells are vanishing in the way. ^^

 

I miss just ONE person, everyday. Someone who makes me feel love and pain, someone who can make me fly and fall, someone who can be na angel and a demon at the same time. She knows that. And she abuses her luck sometimes. But, wanna know something? For now, I'm loosing my mind for her, every day, every night. Maybe one day I'll be so far away from her, mind, body and heart, but, maybe we could be together, and maybe it's gonna be forever. We never know. The future is still being written, But, I will try to make the better choice.

 

Talking to someone who cares, sometimes, is the best thing, other times, is the only need. My heart is still hurted with some words and attitudes, things made by other people against me, without any need of doing it. Some actions were proposital, others, were just some confusion of somebody. Now, all I need is some time alone with my thoughts, but, without getting far away from some people who makes me feel good.

 

Just like I've said before, PUDDING is LOVE!

 

YATTA!

 

bye-Q!



Hurted, Haunted, Hosted

Hurted... So much pain inside... Maybe I'll need to start over and over again... or just don't trust in any woman again... they're so mean to me...

Too much pain in my heart... Nothing more than this...

I'm haunted by all those girls and women who like to hurt everyone. If they don't like, well, they do it at the same way.

Why can't I met someone who really CARES?

Maybe death would be a better way. Why good people die so Young, and bad people lives so long to destroy other people's lives and fates?

I just can't think. Can't smile. Can't breath. All I can do is... cry... nothing more... I need to be alone...

The last days were so bad to me. Friends dying, or going away, or hurting each other. Man, this year SUCKS a lot. It has to be a good year, but, it wasn't. Now, all I want to do is DIE, very fast. Can't live with this pain anymore.

Nothing is Worth it. Don't have any motivation for living.

Maybe at the other side, other world... Dead... Maybe...

Well...

YATTA!

bye-Q!

Correndo ao infinito e além!

Dias corridos, dias confusos... É assim que as coisas estão, atualmente!

Alguns falecimentos aqui e ali, minutos de luto, porque estou sempre cheio de coisas pra resolver mesmo, é trabalho aqui e ali, dias e horários bem aleatórios. É bom por não ter rotina, é ruim por não poder marcar muitas coisas a longo prazo.

Altos conflitos e confusões internas, como sempre, afinal, todo ser humano tem disso.

Sabe o quê é bom, no final de tudo? Só posso tudo isso porque tenho liberdade de escolha!

Ah, mas, a Liberdade tem suas desvantagens...
Existe a carência, mesmo que temporária. Também tem a falta do que fazer, nos dias que não tem trabalhos ou galera pra sair. Muitas vezes, faltam boas companhias...

Várias dificuldades surgem, e várias facilidades também... O jeito tá sendo matar cachorro a grito! uhauhauhahua

Trabalhar com games, televisão e música... Tudo de bom! Não consigo me imaginar fora disso, hoje em dia.

Bom, hora de voltar ao trabalho... Algumas saudades apertam de vez em quando, mas, meu trabalho faz com que eu consiga manter o foco longe disso por um tempo...

YATTA!

bye-Q!